Saturday, January 24, 2015

The Girl And The Fox

When I was a child, I always wanted to believe that I was something other than what I am. The hope that when I was born i didnt open my eyes for three whole days, or my parents actually adopted me, or maybe i have a twin that will show up one day and take me away from myself... These hopes are what made my childhood so foolish. I thought that maybe, if I wasn't me, I would be more. I scoured the back of my hands, the inside of my mother's ear and the back of my father's knees for the answers,and the only thing I ever

found was this:

 The truth is that everyone wants to be heard, but no one takes the time to listen.

I remember the day when I decided to try listening to myself. As I listened I grew, not out, but up, and I saw what I looked like and for the first time I was finally able to look in the mirror without all the fog of unheard  questions. I remember thinking to myself, I'm pretty freaking awesome, and I am the only person who gets the credit for that.

So I would love it if you want to hear what I have to say, but if you don't care about the girl who loves others more than herself, the girl who believes in her religion but sometimes cusses like a sailor, the girl who can't spell and doesn't really care about grammar enough to spend her time fixing mistakes that belong to yesterday's newsletter. The girl who lays awake at night with a lit candle she's not allowed to have, wondering why the world hasn't spun us to oblivion just yet. If you don't want to meet this girl, than that's okay, both the girl, and the fox, understand enough to know you just need to find yourself before you can search for others.






-The Fox