My life soundtrack...... MUSIC HECK YEAH!!!

    Ok, so in an earlier post I said I wouldn't share my music. I lied, it's  just hard for me for some odd reason.... Also I just want to prove that I listen to normal music as well as awesome dubstep songs :)

     and so *drumroll* the soundtrack of my life!!

      Birth/opening credits: Ivory Road by, King Charles 
    Skate park (5yearold) birthday party: Pony (it’s OK) Erin McCarley
    Montage of growing up: Fox on the Run by, The Monkeys
    First Crush: Flowers in Your Hair by, The Lumineers  
    Ben’s tragedy: I see fire by, Ed Sheeran
    Going to junior high: Eat that Up, It’s good
    for you by, Two Door Cinema Club

   Eric clearly being favorite child: About to Die by, Dirty Projectors
   First kiss: Shake It by, Metro Station or Lightning by, The Wanted  
   Winning first trophy : Kids by, MGMT
   Moving: Flipside by, The Click Five

  Lindsay’s Tragedy: Skinny Love by, Bon Iver
  Not making friends: The Mariner’s revenge by, The Decemberists
 First kidney stone/ pain killers…: Night Vision Binocularsby,Passenger
Making friends: Kill Your Heroes or Supernatural by, Kesha
Going to High school: Loud Pipes by, Ratatat
Losing a few friends: Hear Me by, Imagine Dragons
Debate Trips : Comfort Eagle by, CAKE
Attempting: Otherside by, Macklemore ft. Fences
Being convinced not to: Hey Lady by, Thriving Ivory
First day on ProZac: First Day of My Life by, Bright Eyes or Good Day by, The Click Five
Turning 16: Holding on by, Flume
Lindsay leaving on mission: Happy Birthday by, The Click Five
First date: Show Me What I’m Looking for by Carolina Liar
Haunted Forest/ Halloween: Spaceman- Carnage Festival Rmx by Hardwell
First love: Kiss me by, Ed Sheeran
Rugby games: Glory and Gore by, Lorde

    Last real Summer: Drop the Game by, Flume and Chet Faker
   Senior year: Love Me Again by, John Newman
   First Heartbreak: Coming to Terms by, Carolina Liar or I’ve Told you now by, Sam Smith
  Being Single: Ships in the Night by, Matt Kearney
  My life rocks: Gold on the ceiling by The black keys

      Meeting Jonathan McConnell: More than a feeling by, Boston…unsure what goes on until next point…

      at this point I'm kinda just shooting in the dark, these are future events...
   Montage of dates w/husband?: 500 miles by, The Proclaimers Or Calling You by, Blue October
   Getting  married?: Chasing Cars by, Snow Patrol
   Honeymoon?: To Be Alone With you, Casimir Pulaski Day, SuperSexyWoman all  by, Sufjan Stevens
Writing a book?: Spaceman by, The Killers
Being pregs?: Small Bump, Ed Sheeran
Adoption...?: Sweet Disposition by, Tempertrap or First Day of My Life by Bright Eyes
Growing old?: The Gambler by, FUN.
Death/closing credits : What You Know by, Two Door Cinema Club, or closing time by semisonic
Reincarnation…? : 1940 Amplive Rmx by, The Submarines

     Ok, so this is just what I'm feeling now, but I'm sure tomorrow will be totally different:)

Am I Pretty Yet?

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basically my sister just got home from her mission and I don't actually care if this post is good or not.
love you all.

I might just die.

This morning I started watching the third season of american horror story, which is "Coven" and for those of you who don't know, the main witch finds out her powers by accidentally killing her boyfriend, his death begins with a bloody nose, and as soon as the boyfriend died, I got a bloody nose that didn't end for three hours.
So basically I'm about to die.
I decided it's probably time I wrote about death, or at least what I would like to say If I should die soon.

The less you say, the more weight your words will carry.

Meet insults with laughter.

Don't crash yourself on other people's rocks.

Pain is just a hickey from the universe.

Jk about that last one, pain is just your mind telling you to stop what it is you're doing, so if it hurts, don't cut it out, just stop it.

You don't have to be the best of everyone, but be the better of the two, and don't let anyone get the best of you.

I'm sure as soon as I post this I'll think of more things, either that or I'll die, but anyways... Good bye...

Reasons Why I'm Not Popular

I typically am OK with being alone

i get angry fast

i love my dog more than my family

i only talk about now, the future is too far away

I'm a democrat

I'm a fry sauce philanthropist

i try to be friendly

i actually care sometimes

i don't have an instagram

i wont share my music with you

my act score is spectacularly average

i know too many fun facts, and will prove you wrong

i only sometimes love myself, I cant expect the public at large to do what I normally cant.

Of Broad Rimmed Hats and Second Chances

Can people change? I think they can. I've been watching American horror story all day to keep from crying. what is it that is so appealing to me about not being scared by what freaks other people out? Maybe I just like it when I can focus on other things than my parents fighting. My dad told my mom he can't change.
I don't want to write,
i don't want to graduate
I don't want to go to school
                                 or the doctors,
                                             or to disappoint my coach.

                                                      but I really just cant keep doing this.

pull your sh!t together.
figure it out.
think. think.

no.
sometimes the answer is no.